Mass activation dream
Before the Reiki Shock Therapy last night, I built up the images of the Rose Cross in my energy body. I connected and recalled the meanings behind each symbol. When the waves of energy rolled and roiled through me, I felt infinitely heavy and infinitely light. I felt centered and at peace.
I’ve always been very interested in altering perspective… for instance, I can look at the Rose Cross, and see the letter petals at a hill, or as a valley… both work. If seen as a valley, then it seems as though monstrously tall Autiot/Giants are all around; but if seen as a hill, then it seems as though the pretty but decorative petals are very small beneath my feet. I prefer the former: It reminds me of the descent to the Merkava, I suppose.
One of my essays on the topic, before we go to Dreamland – k?
Note: see Sefer Yetsirah 1:6
I noticed that there are several interesting words that relate to Tzafiyah. The first was TzPhIN, which is listed as meaning: “Lookout post†and “Watchtower.†The second was TzPhIM, which means, “Watchers†and is also the place name of the site of Balaam’s oracles. This to me is a very vital point of growth for anyone following a spiritual path. The reason that the vision is from above, as I see it, is that this is the process of attaching yourself to the Neshamah and the Chiah. We have already talked about the need to oscillate from Binah to Chokmah consciousness and back, but now we are starting to see why. To ascend we must attach ourselves to that which aspires to be like God. However, when we do so, the physical and the mundane become the very real hells that we were told to fear as children.
“How art thou fallen , O bright star, son of the morning! How art thou cut down which did weaken the nations! For thou hast said in thine heart, I will ascend to heaven, I will exalt my throne above the stars of God: I will sit upon the mount of the congregation, in the side of the north: I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the Most High; Yet shall thou be brought down to Hell, to the sides of the pit; They that shall see thee shall narrowly look upon thee, consider thee, saying “Is this the man that made the earth to tremble, that did shake kingdoms?â€
The word that means “son of the morning†is BN-ShChR in which BN is son of, and ShChR is morning. ShChR also means the darkest part of the early morning before dawn, and in addition relates to a search that is begun in the earliest parts of the morning. This search is that of the one who is diligently seeking for something, as we seek after the knowledge and conversation with our own angelos when we begin upon the path of our spiritual search. When we have obtained this knowledge, we become light-bearers, though we are born out of the darkness that came before the morning of our awakening.
When we have awakened in this manner, our perceptions are no longer merely ours. We become unified with the angelos … We are now the eyes and ears of our own angelos, as we walk through this world. And to the angelos, what could seem more hellish, than this world which contains pain and misery, and our own propensity to perpetuate that misery by our own behavioral patterns and attachments to qlippothic emotional and mental complexes. The dichotomy is incredible, imho. The self has ascended to heights it never thought possible, and yet the angelos could never have imagined sinking to such a depth. When the Merkava mystics spoke of the descent, I believe it was to indicate that the work was being done by the angelos, to whom it was a descent, rather than the self, to whom it would have been an ascension.
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The Last Mage Game
Kristi and I were walking along a long lonely highway. She was my only support and help during this time. Other people would travel with us for a time, but they would always leave. They always had a story to tell. A few of them were from Drug Court, although certainly not all. Most of them, once I told my own story, and how I got out from under the system, decided to go back and deal with their legal issues.
Nikki [Note: old friend of mine and my wife’s – rabid feminazi, despite a nice husband (Bo) and two kids] showed up one day. She had turned everything around, and was actually a decent human being. She walked with us for awhile, and told us all about how she had driven Bo away, and ended up using, or something like that. We continued to help out travelers here and there. Finally we reached a plain of grass, where Nick [Note: Nick was the summoner, and the third member of the group that I mentioned in the last two blog] and Jared were waiting. Nick wanted to let bygones be bygones, and to start gaming. He started telling me about this Jamaican Mage character who was in the T-shirt business. He went into great detail, finally revealing that the business was a front, for an occult organization that was putting Gates all around the world, to accomplish the final redemption. I looked at Kristi and she nodded. I said, “Nick, the only Gate that is necessary is right here,†and I pointed to his heart, as I made the Connection. The shocked look on his face quickly turned to joy. He turned and made the connection with Jared. All four of us stood in a circle with our hands on each other’s shoulders.
My perspective shifted upward (like it panned outwards until I could see the whole planet), and I saw connections firing off at random, starting from our location and spreading around the world, sort of like I’d imagine a brain would do, if it were starting to dream.
Dream today
I was invited to the set of a Star Trek: The Next Generation episode (Ye Gads, I travelled back in time!!!) and was very excited. However, in the middle of the shooting, I noticed that I had dreamed moments, and began connecting them together, much like the Jul. 24th interpretation. I remembered a dream I’d had with Jonathon Frakes in it, and I told him about how the moment during the shooting had corresponded to my dream. He was fascinated, and wanted to talk to Marina Sirtis about it, seeing as she had done some research on dreams and psychology for her character. We talked for awhile, but she had only studied the subject in a superficial way, so I went outside, seeing as there was a break in the filming. Brent Spiner was outside, and he began to ask me questions, and talk with me, for what seemed to be ages. As we went to go back inside, it seemed I was entering my grandparent’s house…
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Don’t know yet… just woke up.
Sky over P’ville
Mars – Uranus – Helix Nebula forms an equilateral triangle in Aquarius.
That caught my eye – and my astronomy program.
