Odd/Random thought #19295738
Anyone else find it kinda kooky/kreepy that the Plymouth Brethren (which also spawned Crowley) were the first documented instance of the Rapture/Tribulation doctrine within Christianity? How about the implied link between the “Left Behind” series and Crowley? [shudders]
Well, it’s been quite a week. I’ve seen the payoff to several long term situations (and the best is yet to come). I took a job as a bill collector. I wasn’t really looking forward to the bill collecting bit, but I figured that for the sake of my kids, I’d do it. After writing some HTML and showing the right people m4 m4d 5k1LLZ, they decided to offer me an IT position. I’ll probably have to interview again for it, but I’m not too worried as the IT director ok’ed me. I was pretty pleased about it, and my entire group applauded me when I got back up to the training room. It felt good to know that people were rooting for me. When I called K to tell her about it, she let me know that she was probably going to have the baby this weekend. The doctor doesn’t want to induce labor, but I don’t think it will take too much longer in any case. I told her about my news, and she was very happy, then let me know that the income tax check had come back today. Tonight we went out with my parents and had a nice dinner. We talked and laughed for a couple of hours, eating only incidentally. My dad let me know he thought I had grown up, in a back-handed sort of way (a big step for him!!). The significance was not lost on me. I feel as though my heart will burst with joy and confidence. My cup runneth over.
(P.S. I bought this and this! YAY! Now I need to go pick up Godwin’s Cabalistic Encyclopedia while I can)
There are other things that disturb me though. Recent patterns of death kind of bother me, although I can’t pinpoint why. Human/animal hybrid cells seem to be another element that I find strange in this twilight-ish zeitgeist. Politics as usual… Can’t seem to put a finger on it, beside the hybrid cell term: CHIMERA. Which is, of course, another riddle of it’s own. I asked K if she would be interested in researching Matronit for me, and she agreed. Hope this will prove fruitful – I haven’t been able to read Patai’s book as of yet.
Words are things; and a small drop of ink
Falling like dew upon a thought, produces
That which makes thousands, perhaps millions, think.
Lord Byron, (1788-1824)
Twinners
Long before Keanu dreamed of being a Techno-Messiah, there was just the bastard offspring of Tommy: The Wizard. The recognition of skills is an important theme for this I-Generation and I think that it’s interesting to note that we find ourselves playing a game that “has never been played before” … at VIDEO ARMAGEDDON. New game, old game theory: play Pigtails off the Glove and emerge from behind as the Wizard Supreme. But in the end, we find that recognition is only the solve to the psychological coagula that follows. For in the belly of the beast, The Wizard buries his “severed connection to an ancient memory of being whole” and emerges reborn. No messiah, just a boy who found his promised land in California.
What makes the whole thing strange for me is that because I used to look like Fred, we used to joke that he was my brother; so I present to you, Brother Fred.
Chicken Pox // Etheric Hardening
On Friday during lunch we did the final ultrasound, and it seems Kris is 3 for 3 on predicting baby genders (It’s a GIRL). Kris called me later to let me know that they had sent her to Kaweah Delta. Apparently, Kris’ chicken pox had apparently dehydrated her, so they ran her to the hospital to give her an IV (to rehydrate her). I put my training manual on the top of the car so I’d have a spare hand (to open the car door), and ended up leaving it there as I sped down Main Street trying to beat the kids home. So a few blocks down, I hear a thud and see my training binder explode white on the street. Argh. I turned fast and went back around the block [Hoping my boss wouldn't be stopped in front of the binder ready to fire me already] and parked. I ran and got the binder (with most of the stuff in it). I ran back across the street and grabbed another packet of papers, but realized I wasn’t in good enough shape to do that again. I remembered that I needed to get home in time to let the kids in. So I left a buttload of papers in the middle of the street, and hopefully none of it was sensitive data (Yeah, I was actually more worried about that NDA I signed than running back and forth through traffic… geez). The kids were okay, although I was a bit late. So then I get “THE” call. Yeah, the one I’ve been dreading. “Babe, I’m having contractions and they say I’m dilated to 3.”
0]-[ KR4PX0RZ!!!!
Okay. So I freak a bit and get a bit flustered about getting the kids somewhere safe. Try to assure her that I'll be there ASAP. I get the backpacks we've only half prepared, and put the carseat in the car along with everything we'll need. My mom picks up the kids, and then I'm off. I speed all the way to the hospital cursing traffic lights all the way. And then after politely blundering my way through the hospital staff, I end up in the Chicken Pox Quarantine Zone. After getting settled (and playing Advance Wars for about an hour) they decide we're due for a visit. Nurse is reasonably nice (through the language barrier) and offers Kris jello. Kris tries to pump me for chips and a burrito. I slept in a reclining chair of this LOVELY color. [grin]
Anyway, it didn’t happen (we really didn’t want it to just yet… not until chicken pox are over). So we’re home and we got to have a nice practice run. I hope there aren’t any more practice runs. I think my heart would explode if I had to do it twice more.
So the other day I had a thought about the Omega Directive.
As I understand it (in a plutomantic sense), karma can be seen as an accumulation of attachment (Note the proposed differences between good/bad and liberating karma in this wikipedia entry). Attachment is easily understood, if you’ve ever paid someone to do something you didn’t want to do. You’ve just passed your attachment to someone else. I’ve been thinking about recent phenomena, especially why dictators and tyrants seem to be prospering. So what came to me was a bit of a surprise. I saw/heard/experienced a moment where I realized that attachment hardens the etheric (IdeaSpace). The enlightened are fragile like glass, as the etheric pattern becomes less dense. However, the etheric pattern becomes more able to form complex patterns which are more optimal for higher functions (memory/gnosis retrieval). Also, I noted that the evolutionary process of IdeaSpace/”The Astral Plane” (whoo-ooooo) is collision based, and that the shattering of an idea can be the birth of a new form of thinking. This continual mutation process is beneficial for the most part, but can also have a very negative byproduct: memory loss. Not only that, but personality morphing, and sometimes madness can result from these shatterings (paradigm alterations).
So what does this have to do with the Omega Directive?
Continual evolution of their hosts might seem optimal for these Archons, at first glance. However, what about their own substance? If Gods are formed of a substance similar to belief (actions that feed them are typically filtered through one’s belief regarding that action), then they would be of a finer substance, perhaps one that we only barely percieve (liminal processes as previously described). Would this level of perceptual being interface with a human whose belief structure was purely integrated into their structure?
I’m a firm believer in spontaneous self-organization, and coeval physical and spiritual evolution. I think that most of the processes we see as urgent crises are actually minute variations in the overall process of the self-evolution of what might be termed “God”. Right now, I think there are two engineering approaches being taken here (primarily) toward our continual evolution as a species. One is the hardwired concept (H.G. Wells’ Time Machine is a stratified society of this sort) and the other intends to assimilate the Gods themselves. In the first, we would need a unreasonable and unyielding group of people completely given over to their beliefs, so much so that they would die on the whim of a representative of their beliefs. The other option is to become adept enough that people could actually loosen the possession of the Gods over mankind.
(These groups already co-exist and instead of alternative, have intertwined to create a new growth process that’s faster than ever)
I think if we swing the pendulum to one side as hard as we can, well… it’d break the Gods’ hold over us, one way or the other. I guess we’ll see.
PS I’ve been listening to this lately over and over…
Sanhedrin
Apparently they believe they’ve found a scion of David
Jobs, Dream, and Language
Start my new job tomorrow and I’m sick as a dog. Drank some Theraflu earlier and felt a bit better. I’m still nervous (hence me being up at 2 am) although there’s nothing to worry about probably. I’ve been really into Disgaea lately; went from 10th to 50th level characters and I’ve still got a long way to go. Got to see an old friend too, which was pretty cool. I’ve noticed a lot of strange temporal context indicators, like part of the US is reliving the 60′s right now, although I’m not sure why. Ah well, I’m too balloon-headed to speculate at the moment.
Dream of 1/9
I dreamed that Kris and I had moved into a new apartment. It was a nice three bedroom place, and it had a conjoined lobby with several other apartments. In the lobby there was a library, where Kris worked. There was a temple (Shinto?) in the back, although we rarely went there. So Kris started having black outs where she would walk into corners and disappear. There was nothing I could do about it except wait for her to come back. So I would gather the three kids around and we’d all sleep on the floor so that we couldn’t be separated. One day during one of these disappearances, two men came to me. Both seemed to be backwoods hunter types. They wanted me to bury several items in the earth that they believed were haunted. I agreed, and asked if they needed help in repelling the haunting. They requested a Tarot card reading, which I agreed to. I went to the other room to get my cards and had to pass the library. The corner that Kris had disappeared into was swarming with ants. One of her co-workers commented on the oddity of the situation and recounted the minutes before Kris had disappeared. I thanked her, and went to get the cards. The kids were drawing strange symbols on the wall. I made them stop and focus on something so that they wouldn’t trance out again. I went and prepared for the reading. When I went back in the room, the man asked me if I was going to call a psychic line. I said no. He wanted to know if I was going to gouge his friend. I said no. He asked me what I was going to do. I told him that I just wanted to do a simple reading to find out how to proceed in banishing the haunting for him. [blur] The two men were gone. The kids had been acting strangely again. I went to the temple in the back to confront the spirit that lived there. As I walked out there, I remembered there is a way to sing, or rather hold a note, without consciously attending to it. I did so, then brought forward my intent (banishing of the spirit) in the image of a sword. I held it, albeit tenuously, as I walked into the temple. I struggled and had to push my voice out, but it worked. A dark presence fled from the first room. I went from room to room doing this, and finally there was only one room left. I knew that if I banished it from that room, Kris and the kids would be free. As I went to the door of the inner chamber, I awoke.
“The kabbalah divides itself metaphorically into two systems: those based on linguistic imagery [the Sefer Yetzirah is the prime example] and those based on light symbolism [the Bahir and the Zohar are the principal examples of this type]. So, creation is presented as a process either of the uttering of Divine Words or the emanation of Divine Light.”
So, let us see where this linguistic Kabbalah takes us:
- Sod = Atzilut = Nouns, Pronouns, Nominals and Pronominals
- Derash = Briah = Adverbs and Adverbials
- Remez = Yetzirah = Adjectives and Adjectivals
- Peshat = Assiah = Verbs and Verbals
An example of this using Deuteronomy 11:9 from http://www.kolel.org/pages/5764/ekev.html
“11:9 And that ye may prolong [your] days in the land, which the LORD sware unto your fathers to give unto them and to their seed, a land that floweth with milk and honey.”
“Pshat- The simple meaning: A land flowing with milk and honey. The milk is probably goat’s milk. Honey is bee honey. For the generation in the desert, this description portrays a land filled with lush fields, with flowers, and goats grazing on the grass growing between the rocks.
Remez: In Numbers, we read that the scouts return with pomegranates, figs and grapes as a confirmation that it is a land ‘flowing with milk and honey,’ yet they brought back no dairy products. We can therefore assume that the expression can be understood also to mean: a land of abundance and fertility. The Rabbis often use ‘gematria’ (where letters have numerical value) to find alluded meanings. Here, for example, halav, (milk) has the value of 40, hinting at the 40 days Moses spent on the mountain to receive Torah.
Drash: The Rabbis also note that milk and honey are among two of the substances that the Torah is compared to. In Shir HaShirim, we read, ‘milk and honey are under your tongue’ (Song of Songs 4:11). The idea that the ‘land’ is actually a kind of Torah can also be seen by the unusual phrase in our parasha: “A land which Adonai your God looks after…” (Deut. 11:12) using the verb ‘doresh‘ which we typically associate with what we are doing; namely making a midrash. We
can then understand the ‘land of milk and honey’ in an entirely new way, that Torah is not talking about a physical land, but to the ‘land of Torah.’ When we live in a world where Torah is real to us, then we are living in the place God wants. Conversely, we can see the land itself as Torah; on a recent trip to Israel, our madrich taught us that a tour guide considers the land itself the ‘book’ and uses the land as the textbook to teach us.
Sod: This is the mystical level. According to our teacher of Zohar, Rabbi Justin Jaron Lewis, the Zohar associates honey with the Oral Torah, and the Sephirah (emanation) of Malkhut (which is also associated with the Land of Israel)! Chesed (compassion) is white like mother’s milk. (Milk is also associated in some texts with the Oral Torah/Malkhut (as distinct from wine which those texts associate with the Written Torah/Tif’eret).)”
So let’s not forget that all this speculation can be dangerous. As a grumpy old book store owner once said, “Your books are safe”, implying that his is not.
“Pardes: a standard rabbinic term for esoteric exegesis leading to mystical insights. Later texts explain the connection by way of notarikon — i.e., viewing the Hebrew letters in the word “Garden” (PRDS) as an acronym for four levels of interpretation: Peshat (a literal deduction), Remes (an allusive hint), Derush (interpretation uniting material from many passages), and Sod (“secret”: a hidden connection).”
Four paths… one man left in peace.
“In regard to the story of the Orchard, Eli Wiesel suggests in his book, Sages and Dreamers,that ‘the text offers four basic responses to what today we call extreme situations: madness, heresy, death, and faith; four possible attitudes which answer man’s innate need to transcend himself; four consequences of the mystical quest for the absolute. In other words, four men can pass the same gate at the same moment, live the same experience, but what they derive from it depends on their nature’… Herein may be an answer to our friend’s problem. It is not meant for any but the few exalted like Rabbi Akiva to see only a bright future in the midst of tragedy. For most of us, we are a combination of all four friends. With the loss of a loved one, our worlds are turned upside down. In such times we, like the four friends, struggle to make sense of the world G-D has created and our place in it. The Talmudic story of the Orchard suggests the way to begin to recognize and organize our thoughts and emotions. Like Ben Azzai, a part of us dies when our loved one passes on, and that part of us is not recoverable; like Ben Zoma, a part of us seeks to escape the finality of that loss and its incomprehensibility through a touch of madness; like Elisha Ben Abuya Acher), a part of us rejects G-D’s world and the way He has organized it; and like Rabbi Akiva, thankfully, a part of us can see a future. Like a drowning man at sea, we cling to that lifeline of hope tightly with both hands.”
And these are the choices, the four directions of the living creatures of Ezekiel. These are the wheels within wheels that we have sought.
Small miracles…
Sea gypsies r0x0r!
Ah, and I need a personal astrologer like this one, dammit!
All the news I care to report!
A comet brings in the New Year!
Wow. There is a God.
The Shadow Internet provides an excellent model for describing the processes involved in spreading meme’s…
“1. THE INSIDER
Industry and theater employees
run their own straight-to-video operations. Hackers looking for
prerelease videogames target company servers. And before that
long-awaited CD hits Amazon.com, moles inside disc-stamping plants have
already got a copy.
2. THE PACKAGER
The pirated goods are passed on
to a release group. These groups take multi-gigabyte movie files and
squeeze them down for easy online trading.
3. THE DISTRIBUTOR
Release groups are known to
have exclusive relationships with certain so-called topsites. These are
the highly secretive sites at the top of the distribution pyramid. When
a topsite operator drops a file, the avalanche begins.
4. THE COURIERS
Alerted by release groups,
worker bees spring into action, copying and transferring files from the
topsites to lower-level dump sites, and then from there to P2P networks
like Kazaa and Morpheus. For the couriers, the payoff is props from
their peers and credits redeemable for goods on upper levels of the
pyramid.
5. THE PUBLIC
After the file is copied thousands
of times the P2P networks saturate, allowing casual file-traders easy
access to the newest movies, music, and videogames.”
